Draco sat across from Remus and frowned. He hadn't expected to go into detail about the war...but it made sense. No one had ever asked him or really talked to him about it. In a way...Draco was relieved to finally discuss it. He got to share his story.
"I was so desperate... grasping at straws trying to save myself...my family. All of them were poor, pitiful attempts. I tried to go after Harry thinking that this would be my last chance to prove myself to Him. It was the only thing I could think of that might save my family.
And even after all of that...Harry still saved my life when many would have just left me there to die. The two people that had been my so called friends all my life turned on me. I still don't know why he did it. After all those years.
I thought maybe I would stay on Harry's side and fight there to make up for everything. Maybe that was where I should have been trying to prove to them instead of the Dark Lord.
And then I saw my parents standing behind Him calling out for me. Professor McGonagall tried to hold me back. I wanted them to come over to where we were. It's where we should have been."
Draco paused, finding himself choking up on the discussion. Everything coming back to him along with all the emotions that went with it. He tried to brush away the tears that were threatening to fall, embarrassed by the display of emotion.
"-- I was afraid. Afraid that if they did come over where I was that He would have killed them on the spot. Then I would have had no one.
I was so embarrassed for my parents. Watching them pleading calling out to me in front of everyone. All of their pride was gone. I couldn't refuse them any longer... I joined them. I wished that I had never shown my face...maybe things would have been different. But if I never showed my face I would have been deemed a coward then too...even though thats what they say I am now.
I could have done something...but they're right. I was a coward. Part of Professor Snape's death was because of me too. He lied for me and that's something I can never repay. Did you know that he was my god father? He was like a brother to my father. He was also the only one tried to support me during these times."
Silent tears slid down his face as he mentioned his god father's name. He looked away in shame as he tried to recollect himself.
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"I was so desperate... grasping at straws trying to save myself...my family. All of them were poor, pitiful attempts. I tried to go after Harry thinking that this would be my last chance to prove myself to Him. It was the only thing I could think of that might save my family.
And even after all of that...Harry still saved my life when many would have just left me there to die. The two people that had been my so called friends all my life turned on me. I still don't know why he did it. After all those years.
I thought maybe I would stay on Harry's side and fight there to make up for everything. Maybe that was where I should have been trying to prove to them instead of the Dark Lord.
And then I saw my parents standing behind Him calling out for me. Professor McGonagall tried to hold me back. I wanted them to come over to where we were. It's where we should have been."
Draco paused, finding himself choking up on the discussion. Everything coming back to him along with all the emotions that went with it. He tried to brush away the tears that were threatening to fall, embarrassed by the display of emotion.
"-- I was afraid. Afraid that if they did come over where I was that He would have killed them on the spot. Then I would have had no one.
I was so embarrassed for my parents. Watching them pleading calling out to me in front of everyone. All of their pride was gone. I couldn't refuse them any longer... I joined them. I wished that I had never shown my face...maybe things would have been different. But if I never showed my face I would have been deemed a coward then too...even though thats what they say I am now.
I could have done something...but they're right. I was a coward. Part of Professor Snape's death was because of me too. He lied for me and that's something I can never repay. Did you know that he was my god father? He was like a brother to my father. He was also the only one tried to support me during these times."
Silent tears slid down his face as he mentioned his god father's name. He looked away in shame as he tried to recollect himself.